So, here is the result.
I have failed the test and already packed half of my baggage. Wonderful truth. Because of the result I had nightmare almost every night. I can't sleep well and keep on worrying about it. In the end, still the same. FUCK!
I hate talking to people with low position, because of the result. I called the guy everyday. Like spamming his phone makes me felt apologize too. Fk.
This is the best Valentine gift ever.
Maybe I should stop crying and go KK right now. Everything will be fine. Maybe I just decide to give up on studying. Sien.
2.11pm,
14.02.12
2012年2月13日星期一
Worries.
Never think about this before. I might be leaving at Wednesday, that's two day after. I haven't start pack my things yet, everything seems like still so far for me to leave home. I am still waiting for an answer, to decide is that i going to leave home by 2 days after?
Swinburne haven't reply me by my EPT exam. If i pass with 65 marks then i can straight go into Year 1, but if i didn't pass it, I'll have to take the Intensive English that start at April and join the classes at September. I must pass the exam so I will not be wasting half year!
But the problem for now is, I'm still not sure is that I have to leave home 2 days later?
Here is the first situation:
I done packing my things and ready to fly. But the next day morning I received the phone call and its telling me that I have to join the Intensive English class, how I going to face this thing? Like I am ready to start a new life at a new place without knowing any single person in the new class. It is not easy for me. I never went to a new environment all by myself. I don't know how to social, I don't know how to talk to a person that I never meet before. I will just seat there and waiting for people come and talk to me. Actually, I don't even know where I am going to live at. LOL. What a joke. Going to a new place without preparing anything. That was the first time ever. I don't know this is a good decision or not. Some times I feel like giving up, it is not easy for me to do such thing. Be, even when you first come to Sabah you will scared and worried about it too. Same to me, and I am not as great as you such independence person. Mum used to prepare everything for me. Even wake me up every morning. Making breakfast for me. I know that I will miss her soon. If I'm leaving.
But here is the second situation:
I still haven't pack my luggage, untill I received the call and tell me "Yes welcome to Swinburne." And I start to pack my beg in a rush, and starting to think that "I am going to University all by myself. Just me alone. LOL" Like everything is happening so dam fast and soon! Fuck that. I will cry for that but not in front of anyone. Just hide inside my bedroom, crying, while huging my pillow and bears.
That is so weird that I going to write my blog post in English. LOL. Since Swinburne want me to take the EPT test and i start worry about my English level. If first day we have to introduce ourselves, with my broken english? LOL... Sometimes I regret that for stop taking IELTS lesson. Teacher Thomas did help me to improve my English. And I remember that he encourage and suggest me to write my blog in English.
Be ah be, did i felt so scared before just like me? Haiz.
10.01pm,
13.02.2012.
Swinburne haven't reply me by my EPT exam. If i pass with 65 marks then i can straight go into Year 1, but if i didn't pass it, I'll have to take the Intensive English that start at April and join the classes at September. I must pass the exam so I will not be wasting half year!
But the problem for now is, I'm still not sure is that I have to leave home 2 days later?
Here is the first situation:
I done packing my things and ready to fly. But the next day morning I received the phone call and its telling me that I have to join the Intensive English class, how I going to face this thing? Like I am ready to start a new life at a new place without knowing any single person in the new class. It is not easy for me. I never went to a new environment all by myself. I don't know how to social, I don't know how to talk to a person that I never meet before. I will just seat there and waiting for people come and talk to me. Actually, I don't even know where I am going to live at. LOL. What a joke. Going to a new place without preparing anything. That was the first time ever. I don't know this is a good decision or not. Some times I feel like giving up, it is not easy for me to do such thing. Be, even when you first come to Sabah you will scared and worried about it too. Same to me, and I am not as great as you such independence person. Mum used to prepare everything for me. Even wake me up every morning. Making breakfast for me. I know that I will miss her soon. If I'm leaving.
But here is the second situation:
I still haven't pack my luggage, untill I received the call and tell me "Yes welcome to Swinburne." And I start to pack my beg in a rush, and starting to think that "I am going to University all by myself. Just me alone. LOL" Like everything is happening so dam fast and soon! Fuck that. I will cry for that but not in front of anyone. Just hide inside my bedroom, crying, while huging my pillow and bears.
That is so weird that I going to write my blog post in English. LOL. Since Swinburne want me to take the EPT test and i start worry about my English level. If first day we have to introduce ourselves, with my broken english? LOL... Sometimes I regret that for stop taking IELTS lesson. Teacher Thomas did help me to improve my English. And I remember that he encourage and suggest me to write my blog in English.
Be ah be, did i felt so scared before just like me? Haiz.
10.01pm,
13.02.2012.
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