Scared from losing some...

Yesterday i cant sleep again
Untill mid mid night...
3am?
2am?
Whatever....

His message just come,
I dunno should i reply him or not...

Just like,
still angry about him,
but....
He even dunno I'm abit angry about it...



Actually,
he never did any wrong things.

Just I too sensitive.


Like movie repeating....
Ours memories,
will become their memories marh...?

I dunno...

Think alot alot and alot again..
It make me cry also...






Reply him?
Dun reply him?
What should i reply him?
Reply him as simple as I can?

Make him feel like so fan de this girl only...

"Aiyar think too much larh you..."

He wont talk like that,
he is a nice person.
But I'm not.

I'm not mature enough.
Hmm....
Next time,
dun ask too much le....
Make urself mad only....


I saw that Alice's blog,
cause someone told me about that me baru go see de...
I dunno what should I say...
But I'm sorry to know that.

I know that feel,
just like last time...

....

If that happen 2nd time again to us,
I dunno what should I do anymore....

No tittle...
Just wanna write down about he know a girl from msn de and I was jealous about this...
I dun have mood to write about this
Cause hers blog make me feel like...
承诺如同废话，
废话拿来充实时间，
承诺用来点缀孽缘。

六月二十五日阴

再回头看看，
我的部落格已经一年又十一天了。

时间好快，
我都忘了当初怎么会开这部落格了...


今天发生的事情，
还真的不知如何说，
应该是不知有没有mood要讲。


先讲这个吧...



Yesterday 3rd recess..
我和一堆朋友到食堂去，
呵呵...

yups..
i saw wee boon...

guess what he doing?
he is hiding at me...
i abit beh shong + abit funny...
hahaha
den i try to hide also..
i know he dun like it
so............
PLEASE GUYS..
Stop IT!
I dun love him,
i just joking nia....


now arh....
even frens aso cant be..
haiz...

我欣赏他罢了，
because he is funny....
不是喜欢也不是爱


yesterday i think alot alot
is about wee boon de things
i am sorry larh
make u so 不好意思
每天被嘲笑和另一个很糟糕的人

so now i wish u guys can stop it
i dun mind but maybe he mind de
i just dun wanna bring any worse thing to him again




and tok about that junior1 that
i even forgot what class she in le

that tio ppl laugh de flower orh...
now more famous le....
^^

today she 吵架 at canteen
ppl said she so to soi
zzz

actually i dunno what happen
but y wanna make urself like that?
u not sad de meh?


i failed again with controlling my eq this few days
not because of her
is because of many things
she no so powerful larh
...


i heard about is
she bring handphone tio caught
den she 爆 mai other ppl that bring handphone de
....

i asked myself?
i will do that marh....?

i dunno
lols
but use ur brain
clever ppl wont do that thing de

一个人，
擦身而过的人、
一个个回头窃窃私语，
趾高气昂、不可一世。
甚至连没对上过眼的人也反感...

我明白，
曾经也是我，
或许现在也还是，
不过我不知不觉中学会了“检讨”。

好妙的感觉，
Nicole told me that Casper know i wrote about his ex at my blog
I keep think about this while i walking to computer lab

who that guy?

who will view my blog
for me
i told just j3zhong'08 de girls
some of my cousin
or some msn de friends

who is that people...?

Senior One He...?

我不知道.....

高 . 一 . 和

半年了，
我还是不习惯，
他们不喜欢我
我知道啊

呵呵
静静罢了嘛


我不会那么快让人接受的
是啊
像以前的初三忠
也有人不喜欢我
但他们还是接受了我

我很高兴是今年才开始每年换班的
至少我认识了一班三年的初中朋友
丘和新说
在中学时期认识的朋友是很重要的
我可以举手认同
但却不可以认同不深入的认识

坐在电脑前不停的思考
思考
思考
我只想抒发我的个人情绪
呵呵
我不是天天都有机会开电脑的

尤其是星期三
早出晚归
穿着十六小时的校服
其实我很不喜欢
呵呵
好烦


逼不得以罢了
这是住太远的坏处







昨天
她
牵错了手

我们笑得像酗酒的疯婆一样跌跌撞撞的回课室

手的温度
其实没什么分别

我的手
肉肉的
她们说蛮滑的

今天刚把美术作业交了上去
画上画了我的手
左手

左边的是黑白的
右边皮肤色的

很抱歉地说
美丽的那幅黑白画
其实是clinton help me de

不过里面的手真得很美
和自己的相比
呵呵
算了吧


左手食指上贴了片胶布
不知怎么形容
那伤口

想起了titanic里面的男主角
他擅长画画
很喜欢画手


也想起了一个印象很深的故事
他是历史山有名的画家
年少时去拜师
师傅不停的叫他画鸡蛋
日复一日
最后他忍不住了
就问师傅为什么一直叫他画鸡蛋
那么简单他早就会了

师傅告诉他
鸡蛋不是圆形的
在不同的角度
就能画出不一样的东西


还有另一个是写作的
师傅教他坐在街上把每天经过的马车记录下来
他对师傅说
每天来来往往的马车还不都是一样
有什么好记录的

师傅却对他说
要仔细看
每一个细节
驾驭马车的人
车上的乘客
拉着车的马
都会有他们的特征
这都不能写好
怎能把作文写好




呵呵
懒惰写了

我推介的部落格

接受

甜蜜，
一眨眼，
悄悄离去。

悲伤，
一呼吸，
缓缓侵袭。

害怕，
一转身，
紧紧延伸。

解脱，
一世人，
迟迟未临。

没错。时间不会让你忘记痛，它只会让你习惯痛。

如何摆脱？

靠扶持，凭温情。打开胸怀，重新接受自己。

没他，你也行！

I found a blog...

Very nice..
It is...
I go my friend's blog,
and saw de link lai de...
so is my fren de fren larh...

this...
his chinese so pro...
can read chinese de baru go arh...
zzz...
later scold me again..
sweat...


我觉得这很可爱，
呵呵

试验

爱上你，会怎样？

假设： 就算坚持，也要哭着维持，最后反目停止。

操纵性变数： 爱上你
反应性变数： 会怎样？
固定性变数： 四肢发达，头脑敏捷

观察结果：

爱上你 我的眼神对你形影不离
爱上你 我的欢笑变得更有趣
爱上你 我尽可能和你靠近

爱上你 我有了冲动
爱上你 我感受单恋的心痛
爱上你 我知道 原来只是一场梦

所以，

爱上你 = n, where n = 快乐、悲伤、幸福、绝望...

难道快乐一定要加上悲伤；幸福一定要加上绝望, 根据
Principle of Conservation of Feelings, where
Happiness Before = Sadness After？

你的热情，我一时招架不住。封闭的想法，最后才了解，普通朋友也是那么亲近。

朋友，希望他们快乐就好；恋人，也希望她高兴就好。那究竟两者还有什么分别？有。恋人是，你希望她高兴，然后想照顾她，爱着她。当不成恋人，就默默祝福她，当朋友就好...

Therefore, 结论： 就算硬要坚持，也要哭着维持，最后反目停止。

没事儿。昨天忙了足足一整天，待会儿还要再忙一天。一大清早爬起来，就写了一个实验报告。哈哈，PEKA 快把我逼疯了吧...

我几欠打一下咯...

~ 当我没有话说时，就让一切尽在不言中咯 ~

被科学逼疯的人。。。。
呵呵



去看看，真得不错。
请你用心的去领会，
因为再好的书、
再好的词，
如果没有用心的去欣赏，
最终你看到的只是一堆无聊的形容词...

我真得很佩服他，
多希望我有他写得那么好...
呵呵

http://pingchen23.blogspot.com/

是否失落的人写出来的文章都特别有感觉？

今天好无聊，
不知怎么的，
PPStream load 到很慢...
很闲的吧！


好久没有这样子，
没有目的的写着部落格了...


在高一和，
我虽然不是很受欢迎的，
还是有几个比较要好的朋友。
呵呵...
还满庆幸的其实....



有两个，
都在写小说。。

呵呵，
其实我也有兴趣的，
可是我的逻辑不好，
写文章的条理也不好，
好难啊....
呵呵。



接近家长日了，
我的成绩还是要死不死的。
这次我却不怎么担心总平均，
因为我已经算出来了。
呵呵。。。

反正是及格了，
nyawa nyawa ikan...
不知有没有spell错的。


今天的网络不知怎么得好好好好慢，
唉....





回头看一看，
我没什么灵感，
这几天我不断的在想，
生活是无聊的？
每天的日子重复又重复？
呵呵.....



其实我发现了并不是。



只要你有用心，
就会发现，
其实很小的小事，
也是生活中的情趣。

一件很容易被遗忘的事情，
如果我把它记录下来了。
以后再翻出来读，
我的感想一定是：“有乜？”

呵呵，
我的记性不好。

比如说，
张淑美，
蛮无聊的一下。
她罚人家站，
叫那人站好。

*那人站好了。*

她就叫那人坐下......................

有流汗的感觉吗？
呵呵...



真希望每天可以花一点时间来写我的部落格，
让我的心情慢慢的平复下来。






我的华语变差了吧？
我也觉得，
真想每天看一点书。
时间不允许。

我是个邋遢的人，
很不会管理金钱、时间。
呵呵，
将来也没什么成就了。





现在的我在存钱，
看康熙来了，
K-one的Gino说的，
把钱分成三份，
一份是自己用的、
一份是死都不可以碰的、
另一个我不记得了。
呵呵...



Photoshop,
他妈妈的。。。。
Joshua give me de i can't install again....
stupid photoshop!
I tryied installed many times le...
all is trail de...
yish..
make me dun dare buy it myself...
of cause larh..
not 正版的。
fui fui go go said when he found his photoshop will copy 1 for me de
i think he forgot also le lorh
zzz`

yish larh
i am very angry
got photoshop at least i got things to do now




i dun wanna play maplesea
because the hack is useless..
ta ma ma de...

i lose control agian
i cant stop myself for scolding vulgar
forgot abou it bah


oh ya
about the book that i lend from school's library
talking about eq de
i didn't finish reading it
lols

i am not a sabar de people
对我来说作家是要知识很广，
才写的出引人注目的作品
我对九把刀的这本书印象深刻
《杀手。流离寻岸的花》

里面讲述着一个杀手与援交妹的故事
这是一个不用武器杀人、
拳头会冒出火药味的杀手
呵呵
一个痴情的援交妹

不过我实在不懂，
就把刀是如何这么清楚地把女主叫小恩的心情写出来的
毕竟
他不是个女人
呵呵


里面还有个角色，
一个尽是读些平常人不会读的书的工读生
就把刀也是这种人吗？
呵呵
怎么说？
我懒得写了
呵呵

关于这本书
可以在这里阅读
http://www.eyny.com/thread-2330044-1-5.html

i wanna learn how to cook
but my mum not allowed
i wish i can cook for my family for the rest of my life
no need work
lol


bake cake arh,
this arh that arh.

haiz
my mum said 厨师的脾气不好
呵呵
and she 保证 do this 没有出息！
。。。。。。。
so 严重


whatever larh
learn more no loss aso de amrh
haiz

when i wanna learn tennis cant
learn this cant
learn that cant

is very sad de this is not a bad things also
just call me study study study
y cant do another 没有坏处的事情？



and she said
b chef?
go do what
i answer waork at hotel not bad aso arh
she said later so close and in kitchen all boy so near lagi go open room bla bla bla
........................
yaya............
she never wrong de....................................


















today i throw my wallet to my bro's bed that he was lying on the bed..
hit his bird bird
LOL
i dunno he cry
zzzzzzz
i tod he jia jia angry me
hahahaha
manatau he cry!
lol...
ok i know this is my fault...
sorry larh
haha
who call u dun wan go do wor
zzz`











today i went to biao mei de mum de sister hz play "la mi"
i got win few
share with my biao mei the money









today i so hurted to hear this

"因为妈咪讲我们是朋友来的嘛，是妈咪？"

how i wish that my mum was like that......

just to me she very fierce
to my bro
like tok to bf de
she very less smile to me


she can scold liao me str8 turn bak smile to my bro
or smile to my bro liao saw me str8 scold me
it is so hurt to me


she dun eat the things that i ate before
she dun drink aso

to my bro,
even how dirty is him she drink aso eat aso


i am the most 糟糕的 gal in the world!
i know i know
so sad

is almost 1am le..
i go to bed and wait for him to call me bah...
10% over 100%...

触电日

今天和朱朱一起去city mall
for my the sims 3
tmmd
buy liao aso no use...
too lag le for my stupid compppp
arrrrrr
i wanna make my ram bigger larh
yisshhhH!!!

the sims 3 so yeng de
sims got handphone hor
can put silence de
zzzz
and can change ring tone arh
ermmm
can take photo arh
hahaha
some was funny

yeeeee
actually the sims 3 i sso yeng larh
but i cant
zzzz
cant play
haizzzzzzzz
how i wish i can play that
T.T
wait liao whole week
den....
heart break liaoooo

haiz









chu chu said hers mum like very like me
zzz
because of "tuaran lang"
that si chu chu
when she born they move to new hz not at tuaran liao
zzz
and hers mum said she was born while cooking 团圆饭
lols
den that nite hers family nth to eat
LOLLLL

see this girl arh
just born nia already so cham le hers family
hahahahaha



that si ham po today go city mall keep "shot" me ehh
at least 10timessss above tio she shot le
zzz
so scary de
walk walk xia horrr
she suddenly shot dao me liao
zzzz


and we saw kong and waong hong weng and WEE BOON lerh
hahahaha
so happy but i no see tio his butt
T.T



hmmm
and we both wear sport t shirt marh
den hor
zzzz
got 2 wear sttss uniform de guys keep looking at us
..........
they more weird larh
lols
y look at us like that worrr zzz




hmmmmmmmmm
i wan play the sims!!
arrrr........
haizzz



almost skul reopen le
but hor......
i not yet bought till a beg
haiz
so pity
and container
.........
fuck de
it is so hard to find a beg
fucking principal larh
walao
change this change that
*)#@_&$&^#_%(*$




just now watching shopaholic
watch till wedding de
so gan dong
haiz....
u again....
yes i think about u again....

if our wedding...
can sweet like that...?
(sorry i know is impossible..........)
just wanna said that I MISS YOU!

午夜的思念

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.



When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.



When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how
long you will be around.



When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all
fine.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.



When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.



When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.



When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.



When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than
that.



Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....



Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses
your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he
is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

I like this e-mail.

对我来说，
它非常的有意义.....

呵呵，
今晚的我一直在思考着有关于爱情的种种....


我想你了....



对，
这就是我在思考着的原因....



我们疏于联络了吧....
你知道其实我很想你吗？
非言语能够表达的。


对了，
又是这些恶心的句子。。



今晚是个宁静的夜晚，
十二点零七分了。

想起了钟声。


古老的钟都会在十二点时响的吧？
好像灰姑娘....

他问过我，
我家的钟会在每个整点时候响的吗？

不会哦。




十二点零八分了，
我有再次回到了失眠的夜里。


其实，
我好想睡。
明天会更好。

面对这复杂的日子，
有时候还真的觉得满难熬的。
为什么我羡慕的人都不知足呢？


呵呵，
我知道，
可能也有羡慕我的人在觉得我不知足吧....

As my msn tittle,

"Life is complicated."

And also,
I missing you.







其实，
我还想向一个人道歉，
呵呵...


今天早上我在餐馆遇见她们一家人，
我没有看她们。
并不是我不要，
是尴尬....

还有，
我实在不好意思。
当我坐下来时，
又叫了声“uncle”，
i guess he 没有听到......


I am sorry for being like that,
it is so hard to greet a people.

Sometimes,
Scare that people didn't saw me so dun greet better...
LOLs....

And sometimes,
Really dunno wanna greet or not..
Maybe we just talk few time only?
Maybe he/she forget me already?

I'm sorry if i no greet you,
sometime really i didn't see you also..

Today i went to beach`

一直向往国外的写意生活，其实你知道沙坝就有这么的一个地方了吗？

我所拍得其实并拍不出什么，
这个地方，
你没到过就无法想象。


它将发展成五星级酒店
他有类似民宿的海边房屋

欧式风格
还在建造中

据工人说，
还要两年才能建好这些房子

基于不敢乱拍照的原因
我并没有把这些建造中的房子拍下来
因为怕怕
等下拍到brother sister den die le
zzzz....

ok...
next time if got chance
i wish u guys can go see see
there really nice

there de beach very clean
got few white man
lols
but i cant see any white woman

i mean tourist
hehe



that place is a resort
but less and less people go
maybe
10 or above?
and below 20?

lols...

actually there is abit scary de...
cause less people

and the road went to there de
need to turn and turn and turn
lols
i am a 路痴

so..
it is hard for me to remember the road


but the way to the sea side hor
like a kampung kampung kampung

i mean dalam kampung kampung
but some really rich seh
......

sea side.. see the beach so clean de

pretty lerh... really no rubbish de...
just the little ball? zzz made by crab de

my uncle, aunty, and my zzz de cousin

biao mei

nice place



me and my biao mei looking at this
a crab hiding inside















today de weather nice
windy
and no big big de sun zzz
i can feel that my english was suck but i lazy type in chinese
lols.....

It is a moody day..

After i using psp to view my blog and saw all the comment,
i was moody
from just now

my fucking bro wan go to shop
cb larh
call the maid bring him go he dun wan
tmd
make my mum keep fan me
keep call and call and almost start scolding

i walk back home with a smelly faace
i already told my mum
I BACK HOME LIAO THEN DUN WAN GO OUT LIAO!
ma de


reach home
i scold him
i said i dun wanna go
he dun dare call my mum too
cause i was fierce

then few mins later
my mum call back home
TA MA DE LAHR
FORCE ME BRING HIM GO



GO DIE LARH
i bring him go liao
OK FINE!
I BRING LIAO!!

when i reach home she phone home and scold me again!
WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT
I AM TRYING TO CONTROL MYSELF LIAO

I HATE YOU ALL!
U ALL SUX!!!

in the phone i tok very slow and very slow controloing my emotion
i hate this world no one can understand me
i need a people to an wei me when everytime i and sad i am crying
crystal bday that thing hurted me deeply
i can let u all making joke
but please
dun take me zi zun as a joke!
i am also also a girl
it is no dinner for tonite
i will lock myself in room before she was back
so hard to pass the day
why must like this
i hate really really hate this world
why my mum can more closer to hers daughter






*continue*

it is better than last time le
last time i cry for few days
i hate all the boys that at my class

ya
no one know
i just told 2 people


thank you u girls for pei-ing me this kind of days
it is hurted me than break with a guy
this kind of things make me more hate myself
more hate this world

Crystal Birthday...

happy birthday...
today not her real birthday




it is about
heart broken
what they did make me feel like i am the..
most sux de gal
yea
they mean that
it is obviously

while playing game
is about boys and girls
hmmm
if u...
with all gal aso nvm
except mme
wow
so hurteddd
u know how that feel
is wanna cry at that time
but i no cry
just be quiet


dun wan still ok
but straight phone come go away
lagi si....
not just face problem
is about 自尊



and what another ppl said
tio jackpot

....


how...


speechless.....





straight whole people down....

ben lai
already bu xi guan le
cause i dunno them
many of them i dunno de
is so...



if that the people who say that is i dunno de
maybe is ok
but i know them
have been same class for 3 years




ok...

this is not the first time happen le..

nevermind....
what can i do?

我忍.....
其实，
我什么也做不了


请尊重每一个人
即使再糟
他也是个人


你永远不会明白这种感受
因为那不是你！